Wednesday, March 30, 2005
booze and me
my head is heavy with all that vodka and beer.i walked home on heels alone from a club near chinatown.
gross.are you mortified?
i didnt even think i might be robbed/raped/assulted/attacked/mobbed by strangers/robbers/gang/drunkards
i thought i might get to know more people.
not just standing there being pushed around,trampled on my toes,nodding my head off the techno trance-like music,inhaling tobacco, getting more booze,blinded by ah bengs' light sticks and amused by indian's dance moves.
this aussie called me a lass.haha a lass!
i thought he was cute.his words were cute.
ah my head spins my hair stinks my throat parched my feet hurts.
aint felicitous.
i should write poetry or lyrics,do a painting or two,get into the classical music mode and bake a chocolate mud cake.
clubs are meant for people to meet people who know people;not people who wants to know people.
some asian party,it was no fun no fun no fun no fun.
at all.
there was a japanese party yesterday.M came back drunk laughing crying and hugging me.
secrets,affairs,scandals,love.
she asked for a man!a man she barely knew!
ah more of these im going nuts.
i cant take care of a drunk needy emotional woman.
the whole time i had to change towels boil water for tea call man change towel call man
after man came i had to exit the scene shoo-ed by man.(hello?)
felt like some insignificant lowly nu bi.
boohoohoo.
oh did i mention some rowdy angmohs threw an egg at us on easter saturday?
i supposed their goodwill meant happy easter.
how apt.
is that felicitous too?
i was fiddling with mascara and my lashes today.complete with the curler!haha not that it is felicitous but haha i liked my glamorous eyes.
after this random shit im going to pantene-treat my hair.it stinks!!!!!!!
i love you people.i miss quality friendship.quality conversations.quality everything.
darn,i think im drunk.
i love you people still.
xoxo,
ike.
fuck at 3:25 AM