Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Third month, there is a third birthday to save
Its sanduos birthday on thursday. It Daniels birthday tday. Its Yingwei bdae celebration 2 days back. Birthdays, birhtdays give me excitement. You know how i love to show love on birthdays, i love everything big and special, abundant, excessive, surprises and making the birthday person feel like its really his day in his world(his=both sexes). Call me Mrs Dalloway/ clarissa if you like.Yingwei's bdae i bought a cake. i was simply given the task. a good meal, much talking and upDating. - shes dating Kaixiang from tchs/hcjc/medicine nus!
As i sit here passive doing nothing about Daniel's day, as ernest and the rest of them drink till probably dawn in their way of celebration. i feel like im handicapped. why am i not doing anything? Simply its too much for me to do anything more than a simple happybdae sms. why? oh you all know why. A friend who's a gem, and i treasured, and more so now. but doing less than i want(ed).
Which brings me to wonder. im really at a loss - what do i do for the upcoming birthday? Has anything changed at all? it certainly feels so. Shld i save this birthday, a question posed well more for myself than for him. Who wants to share Harley Davidson? since we're all his pillion- Are we Fei 1Nu3? Sq taught me this term today, he zao ju-ed : your mum was a Fei Nu. oh werent we fei nu-s with a postman that shanghai night, so much fun!
im sorry if these posts and nonsense are so random. i have random things to care about. its so tiring. new tasks every day. i gotta be random. and talk bout myself, hopefully they fulfil the cuase this blog was established for. just lamentations i know. read and forget. fathom this lost freedom phantom we're all just atoms heaped in random . less care less care!
fuck at 3:31 AM