Tuesday, April 19, 2005
bring on the coup de grâce,wretched fate!
oh my friends im so distraght! argh as u know, ive been toiling under my very overdue term papersX6. today i woke up, and decided that the weather makes for a good day to end it all. i know i was finishing the last two papers today. i knew it in my blood, bones, pores, hair and bone marrow that i will finish everything today.so i worked in the MORNING. finished one. satisfied. plan to have a celebratory lunch with my award winning boyfriend before finishing off the last, the last, the very last paper. so i changed into a nice set of clothes, and was eager about treating us a good meal at the very nice holland v. and alas, i went mail-a-checking and saw:Dear Y
Since despite consistent emails sent out to the Class, and emailing you individually, you have not submitted your term paper or your Class test, I'm afraid you have received a zero on both of these modules. This has seriously brought down your CA grades. I have graded your term paper proposal which you submitted late. But since I have to give up my CA marks today to the Office I cannot wait any further for your other scripts. Hope you can make up in the exams.
Best
Dear Y,
Several things:
1) Essay
I have received the soft copy of your essay. I have consulted Dr. Yeo on the matter and am awaiting her response. As the submission is really late and all marks for Continue Assessment should be submitted by now, some manoeuvring is required. Nevertheless, I will do my best.
2) Late submission
Thank you for your explanation.
3) Victorian Poetry
I would think you are expected to know beyond those poems that were analysed during lectures and tutorials. For instance, in the case of Browning, Dr. Yeo has given out a list of poems to be covered, but actually analysed only a couple during lectures/tutorials. Besides, having knowledge of a wider repertoire of poems would give you an additional competitive edge against your colleagues.
Last but not least, my condolences for the passing of your friend. Though we mourn the inevitable physical passing of anyone, or anything, memory serves as a formidable source of joy and closeness.
distraught, my papers were/are all too late. i needed that condolence.
then i went to pay my library fines, walked all over the faculty to hand in my work. since i was in skool, i thought i shld care more for my work, so iwent to the philo department to collect my marked papers and a frentic 10 minute tossing and searching thru the pile work, i found mine only to have this scarcastically screaming at me:
Dear Y,
here's my 2 cents worth on ur case:
first, even if what you were saying about the case of your friend who died from leukemia was true, i shall still impose a few sanctions on ur papers - especially on the first one, since it is extrememly late. i sent u an email and you didnt reply. so, i thought you intentionally did not want to submit an essay. you didnt also attend the last two tutorials - for these matters you could have actually sent me a mail to notify me of what's going on. But you didnt. So, i shall impose the ff. sanctions (since u're a sui genesis/unique case among all the other students - all ur classmates turned in their papers and if they were to submit it late, they emailed me right away abt their situation. the highest mark that you can get for both papers is the mean average of the class - but it can be lower than the average of course, because it is just not fair to give u a mark at par with the others who were responsible enough to submit their papers on time.
Thanks,
my heart stopped entirely. and i flipped. and saw the parthian comment : Good paper. but i have to give you sanction, so this wont receive its deserved mark. next comment: ok. good.
and i failed both papers.
and i got a zero for participation when i attended class twice, made contributions. and presented.
following the attacks, i had too full a stomach after a less than perfect meal in the school cafe. which didnt help by refusing to serve beer before 6! what the booboo. i just needed a mug!
and when i showered today my shorts dropped on the floor.
slept. and woke up by my award winning best supporting man award winner's nightmare, only to face my own:
Dear Yvonne
Just went up after a departmental meeting and saw your test paper in my mailbox. I am very sorry my dear but I handed in the Continual Assessment grades for the whole cohort to the Office at 12.00noon today. The deadline for submitting CA grades was yesterday but they extended it for me by half-a-day because I was waiting for any last minute submissions. I'm afraid there is nothing I can do now.
Best
i wonder how many a walk and how many a sigh i need to get over my failures. i love all three modules dearly. they are my favorite subjects.
i am not well, it is well into the reading week. and i still have not started on revision, not to mention that one last paper (which will not be graded of cos) that dances about my severely mangled mind.
And so it is, one day in my semester, and my semester in one day.
fuck at 8:25 PM
2 Comments
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at 10:36 PM
said... be kind to slow drivers and people who dial the wrong number.
a friend, who is going through more difficult times, showed me this site. http://whatmattersmostinlife.com/html/preview.html .out of the blue. cliches abound, and truths we've more or less found. but miraculously, i appreciated it elevator music, rather - sound.
i know i need to get over, jump over, skip hop and fly over this minor unhappiness.
i wish they would distribute these hackneyed advice for free. if they really mean good.
oh, never settle for what you used to be or have been.
i need to change.
hearby name time my ally.
(if not now, when?) lol lol lol
ive learnt my lesson the hard way.
gotta change.
what do all of you think of the dispensed advice?
nonetheless, im looking forward to seebozhi's island.
i want to buy a sun hat to celebrate my failure
oh get over it. idiot.-
at 11:56 PM
said...
it's generis lei...ur lao shi wrong..
hmm but i like her/him...quite benevolent...waha, dont mean to dig at ur misery
yah so live out of it k...return her kindness with good exam papers
all of them love you, dont give them any reasons to stop loving
anyway it came as a conclusion,
stay in ur room the whole study period...or study...dont slack
the deprivation is all worth it
goodluck in crawling of of misery~