Thursday, September 22, 2005
world citizen
congrats on ur keng ike!!!!love it....
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happy xinister
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my comp was finally revived, all thanks to the friendly people at CITS.
my teacher taught us aerial steps, really cool so exciting
i was so happy today i couldn't stop smiling and i gave everyone a breakfast treat.
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not so happy xinister
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i was reading somebody and a wave of depression suddenly hit me because i feel that no matter how many entries i write it can only be....xinister, singapore....xinister, jurong west... xinister, yishun.
xinister used to be free...she wanted to roam the world. she was to speak to more people who didn't know her. she didn't want ropes entangling her every move.
but i'm feeling that tug for every step i take right now.
i feel that i have a man who waits patiently for the day i wish to settle down
i feel like i have a permanant partner.
i feel like in this life i will never have a chance to break up with somebody because my first love is someone i really love.
i feel like all around me people are saying, "the day will come when you would want children"
i feel like i have a permanant job waiting for me
i feel like im suspended in between some and no where.
ever had a life so complete and incomplete at the same time?
some people like to say we have insatiable needs, but us "hanged men" are the worst. they have everything but they can't lose anything.
a xinister who can't experiment with life is a sad xinister.
she is but a wilting rose
the one the beast forbade belle to touch
the one le petite prince had on his planet
what is life when all is bland and routined,
but am i daring enough to release myself into the dangers of the unknown?
do i really need to feel terrible before i will ever feel satisfied?
ah chia at 11:39 PM